i don't understand that smiley face of yours
i think it'd be better if i leave you alone
i no need to agitate myself
i can help other people more since they want to be helped
not saying that you don't want to be helped
just that the ways we do things are SIMPLY different
you couldn't take it
sorry, my apology
you can always find others to teach you
well, if you think that what i'm asking you to do are redundant
you can don't do it
because you gotta first believe in what you doing before you can do it greatly
its ok :)
we'll find out at the end of the tunnel

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OK !! I think i really sucks at teaching cheerleading
all i've been doing is only punishing you guys
i think that isn't a good way
because it doesn't seems to be getting any result
be more patience like XingWei shifu?
or get-things-done type like ZhaoMing shifu?
*confused*
both work out for different people
if i don't punish, people don't learn
if i punish, people du lan
shit man
its really bad to be the BETTER one in the team
XingWei shifu said people will understand eventually as time pass by
and that people will appreciate the effort
i don't really see it anyway
you said because i'm your tudi
so you're expecting a lot more from me
and especially when i'm the better ones in the team
i wish i could be there up to your expectation
really
i wish i could be that good
but the matter of the fact is i'm not good enough yet
i can't even pass my own assessment on myself
nothing is ever enough for me
i deserve the best
for that
i have to become the best
haix
it's really sucks la
sometimes, i wish i could be nobody
not saying that i'm a somebody now
i won't fight for anything
thus, people won't be talking & bitching about me
is it because i care about what others say?
of course i care
because i want to know how people think of me
and changes myself accordingly if there's any fault
certain people whom comments are valuable to me appears worthless to them so they decided to keep it to themselves
sorry people
you are not helping
well, its not the first time anyway
i don't really want to care anymore
i clearly spell out your mistakes
if you still refuse to change
probably you can PRAY to GOD to CHANGE you
well, it seems sarcastic
actually, it isn't
because, if you do not help yourself
GOD couldn't help you either
shifu say "give before taking, give and you shall receive"
i guess i haven't give enough yet
haix !!
need to gain more knowledge i guess
i want to open my eyes more
please help me
thanks
quite a lesson learned from shifu
realised that there are some perceptions and ideas which are not so right
i guess its about time for a great REVELATION
jiayou ken !!
GO GO GO !!
people are behind you cheering you on
well, oh by the way, i could still laugh and smile and cheer even without you in my life
afterall, its not the first time that friend disappoint me
they've done it dozens of times

byebye~


I MISS JEN
I MISS ANDRA
I MISS AMY ONG
I MISS SERENA ONG
I MISS LENNY
I MISS MAGNIES !!
can we go out on sunday?
stupid jen and andra please better make sure you're FREE
WAHAHAHAx !!
:D :D :D :D

JIAYOU FOR TRYOUTS !!