hey~
i know its been difficult for you to tolerate a friend like me
but i really don't wish to see that you think that cheerleading had robbed me from God
you know i always loved cheerleading
i love to cheerlead
without cheerleading
probably i would end up at some corner playing some lame game again
i don't want to waste my poly life off just like how i did in Jc
it's always a mixture of feelings
i've given so much to God during my two years in Jc
yet it did not turn out to be what i expected it
probably i can only blame myself for what had happened
a lot of time i do not want to think that God is the cause that i failed so badly in Jc
i know i play a part
i also don't know if this is the cause that i'm not ON FIRE for God
but i just want to cheerlead till i die
it just make me feel very sad that we're so distance away
so OFF FLOW now
you said you don't know how you should love me as a friend
i know you don't expect answer like
"just treat me as normal friend loh"
i know you can't accept it
and i know you will never accept it
but i feel really affected
because i felt you're pushing me
that i've to make a decision now
1.) be on fire for God
2.) let things be as it is
3.) backslide again
you want to know why am i not giving you any answer?
because
1st decision was too difficult to make
of course you may think its easy
2nd decision was what i already chosen
seemingly you're unhappy with it
3rd decision was a bad decision
i don't want to lose friend like you
so basically the best decision is to
CHOOSE TO BE ON FIRE FOR GOD
seriously, i also don't know why am i not making this decision
probably simply i just don't want to commit
i want to have more fun
i felt really really really very sad
that you think that cheerleading had made me drifted from God
and felt really really really very sad
that you choose to tell me at such crucial moment
i'm affected by what you've said
i choose to hang up the phone because
i scared that i will be even more affected
i'm not angry
but just affected la
i know you care and concern about my well being
be it physically, mentally or spiritually
overall
i'm just sad, sad big time
i don't know if this is the end of the entry
i think there might be more coming up
for now
it shall end here
i know its been difficult for you to tolerate a friend like me
but i really don't wish to see that you think that cheerleading had robbed me from God
you know i always loved cheerleading
i love to cheerlead
without cheerleading
probably i would end up at some corner playing some lame game again
i don't want to waste my poly life off just like how i did in Jc
it's always a mixture of feelings
i've given so much to God during my two years in Jc
yet it did not turn out to be what i expected it
probably i can only blame myself for what had happened
a lot of time i do not want to think that God is the cause that i failed so badly in Jc
i know i play a part
i also don't know if this is the cause that i'm not ON FIRE for God
but i just want to cheerlead till i die
it just make me feel very sad that we're so distance away
so OFF FLOW now
you said you don't know how you should love me as a friend
i know you don't expect answer like
"just treat me as normal friend loh"
i know you can't accept it
and i know you will never accept it
but i feel really affected
because i felt you're pushing me
that i've to make a decision now
1.) be on fire for God
2.) let things be as it is
3.) backslide again
you want to know why am i not giving you any answer?
because
1st decision was too difficult to make
of course you may think its easy
2nd decision was what i already chosen
seemingly you're unhappy with it
3rd decision was a bad decision
i don't want to lose friend like you
so basically the best decision is to
CHOOSE TO BE ON FIRE FOR GOD
seriously, i also don't know why am i not making this decision
probably simply i just don't want to commit
i want to have more fun
i felt really really really very sad
that you think that cheerleading had made me drifted from God
and felt really really really very sad
that you choose to tell me at such crucial moment
i'm affected by what you've said
i choose to hang up the phone because
i scared that i will be even more affected
i'm not angry
but just affected la
i know you care and concern about my well being
be it physically, mentally or spiritually
overall
i'm just sad, sad big time
i don't know if this is the end of the entry
i think there might be more coming up
for now
it shall end here