Happy Man

2008-12-01T09:50:00.004+08:00

as of 01 Dec 2008
690th entry

my life is taking a sharp turn
decisions have been made
this blog will be abandoned for the time being

if you still want to check me out

please go to this blog :)

http://kenishere.blogspot.com/

anyway, just to update on yesterday's Stunt Fest
2 words

WOOHOOO ~!!
*SIGH*

2008-11-28T01:39:00.001+08:00

there ken goes again

he jumped
while preparing to tuck
suddenly he blacked out
and "pooom"
he's on the ground
landed with his left head and left shoulder

ken is GG-fied

2008-11-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

visited an old blog which doesn't update for like MONTHS going half a year

you are not good if you don't get better

find this familiar?
it's on GForce's blog
how to conclude whether am I good or not?
did i get better?
i think i got better
but

PS: There's nothing to write after "BUT" because that's for me to know ONLY

2008-11-26T17:23:00.002+08:00

i need to start to plan for myself a new phase of life
i felt
it's about time to
"MOVE ON"

2008-11-26T17:22:00.000+08:00

我知道是我錯
所以
無論你說什麼
我都不跟你斗嘴
即使髒話三字經
向我拋來
我也不會回應
而且
我們嘔氣也夠久了吧
我不想再繼續這樣了
因為
太煩了
我的離開
或許會對你與我和全家都好一點

2008-11-26T03:59:00.002+08:00

i would like to say thanks to gary and suhui
because they actually said thanks to me today
i felt so appreciated
hahahax!!
anyway, it takes alot from a man to say things like
"Hey man, thanks for what you've taught me today"
Because man has got their pride problem
and HUMAN often feels that they were OUGHT TO BE taught by others
as if people are OBLIGED to teach them
kakaka
kudoos to both of you
thank you so much
:)

2008-11-26T03:52:00.002+08:00

ZM shifu told me that someone told him that he/she feels tat I am the type who wouldn't bear problems with the team...

Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah man
I'm just a loser
I'm just a sucker
When problems arise, I run away
I'm always the first one who say
"I GIVE UP" right?
WOOTS
be it then
let's see at the end
who will truly give up

2008-11-26T03:43:00.001+08:00

當選手的
都應該有些企圖心吧
而所謂的企圖心是
我企圖當一位國手
我企圖當一位好選手
我企圖當上一個隊的領導者
我企圖練會什麼動作
當然不會是我企圖傷害或破壞任何人、事、物
而啦啦隊卻沒有辦法可以好好的發揮及展現企圖心
尤其是換了新環境
當你自己越來越接近成為一位選手的時候
開始會慢慢規劃自己的練習
慢慢計畫自己想做些什麼
想朝向什麼目標前進
但在練習的同時
卻又害怕同伴或是學長姐們的眼光
害怕失敗
害怕同伴嘲笑你自不量力
害怕學長姐們私下討論你是非
於是
害怕嘗試新動作
害怕自己練習失敗
先前有寫過一篇文章
練習是練動作還是練臉皮
這真的太貼切了
練習不就是不斷失敗中求成功嗎??
不就是把所有的失敗經驗累積起來
最後檢討出一套屬於自己的方法嗎???
小毛練了體操十幾年
從來不覺得在練習場上動作失敗會是一種恥辱
甚至在比場上也是
難道體操那些難度這麼高的動作
是失敗一兩次就馬上可以成功的嗎???
如果體操圈的人也是這樣的練習心態
那動作難度應該還停留在前空翻跟後空翻吧!!
因為比較簡單不容易失敗
我想即使是世界冠軍
一定也是從失敗中走出來的不是嗎!?
世界冠軍失敗的一定比其他選手多出更多更多
動作失敗一千次的選手
比起只失敗一百次的選手
要可以預防其他九百次的失敗
只失敗一百次的那位選手
還不知道他將會有其他九百次甚至更多的失敗狀況出現
你失敗這個動作幾次了呢???
你還在害怕別人的眼光嗎???
還是你覺得時間可以等著你把動作練成功後才開始走動呢???
你曾經想過如果你不需去在意別人眼光的時候你已經會了多少東西了嗎???
自己的運動表現會停止不前
真的不要是因為別人的眼光所引起的
因為那不值得
不斷的練習是為了讓自己不斷進步
不是為了別人而練
更不是為了臉皮而練
練習時
別讓你的自尊心大於你的企圖心
加油加油加油喔!!!!!!!!!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

讀了這篇文章後
整個人都鬆懈下來了
毛老師
這文章﹐太貼切了啦！！
「練習是練動作還是練臉皮」
幸好我臉皮夠厚
好好好
我不自誇好了

“還是你覺得時間可以等著你把動作練成功後才開始走動呢?”
時間不等人哪
我也不能停滯不前
進步了
我想要更進步

“別讓你的自尊心大於你的企圖心”
我的自尊
早已被無數的人踩在腳低了
或許
也因為如此
自尊反而變得更強大了
因為
我的技巧是我用自尊還來的
別想要侮辱它！！

最後想說的是
如果有人看不懂﹐那真的很可惜

2008-11-26T02:56:00.000+08:00

YAY !!
thrash out
quick quick
i want thrash out

2008-11-26T01:08:00.002+08:00

oh man
all of a sudden
just felt that
i'm so lousy
am i really progressing quick?
star shifu told me i considered progress fast liao
but didn't i feel it?
comparing to others
i'm like still here
i mean
yes, i did improved
but it doesn't seems enough for the period spent
i should really work harder especially on my arms
weak arms and shoulders
more handstands and handstand push ups
more military press
more arnold press
more GYM workouts !!
no more excuses !!
RawR !!

heard something in Graham's car just now
"When one person is not loving you the way you want them to, that doesn't mean that they are not loving you with all they have"

probably,
we've loved each other in such a great different and wrong manner
that's why we ended up in this state right now
whatever it is
there's nothing much i can do
i tried to salvage it
but, you're not trying
and thus, therefore, i conclude that
i want things to stay this way
even if it changes in the future
it will only because that we've distant away from each others
i think its a good ending

2008-11-25T00:46:00.001+08:00

blazers?
ohman
what's that?
just F*** OFF man
:)

2008-11-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

上樑不正下樑歪
so what if you tell us that you know that you've disappointed us
the point is you already disappointed us
if i knew you could not attain such maturity
i would not have even given you the title
such a great disappointment
OF COURSE, on the other hand
I could have been a BETTER GUY, SUPER UNDERSTANDING GUY to think in your shoes
sorry man, I don't think that's the way of doing things
OR do you actually allow people below you to do the same thing?
C'mon man
Get Real
If that's the way you're going to do things
what's there to achieve at all?
OH man
I think no point already la

ANGRY? surely
PISSED? definitely
DISAPPOINTED? undoubtly

2008-11-21T02:07:00.000+08:00

這一路走來
真的辛苦了
感觸的確良多
痛苦﹑心酸時無人知
表面功夫做得了得
才不至於被人識破
自己背後的努力
但﹐就是因為得來不易
才更珍重這份進步
才更想更想更想要更上一層樓
的的確確是辛苦了
我還想要變得更厲害 ﹗﹗
加油寶貝小貝貝~~

2008-11-20T17:31:00.001+08:00

又見到你了
好開心
憔悴的臉
雖依然遮掩不了
那艷麗的笑容
但也請多多休息好嗎？
因為
我喜歡見到你
喜歡你的問候
再見啦 :)

2008-11-20T11:45:00.001+08:00

i noticed your tiny little braces
i'm so attracted to it

CUTEness !

2008-11-17T03:08:00.002+08:00

I've paid a fair share amount of PRICE to get to here
That's why I'm trying my best to help
Because I don't want to see people paying the same amount of price like I did to get to where I am
Its, definitely, PAINFUL
SO, why not you decide how much you want to pay?

Quite random I guess
Yea, definitely random
Just felt that, I've really paid quite an amount of PRICE to get here
Be it physically in Singapore or reaching this stage of Maturity
Its been some long long long years
Nobody REALLY knows my past or even how did I end up in Singapore
Hahahax !!
Its kinda LONG & COMPLICATED story
BUT, Thank God I'm still alive and kicking

jiayou yox !! :D

STAR SHIFU's BIRTHDAY !!

2008-11-16T14:10:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Star Shifu !!
i know what's your age, but i don't think you want me to state it here
*kekeke*
so many things to say
thanks much for the
helps, guidance and teachings
motivations and challenging challenges you gave
they are simply indescribable
hope you enjoy yourself on this special day with Snow Shimu
last but not least, i will continue to work hard and will BEAT you soon !!

PS: don't ask me why is his face so weird in both photos :P

2008-11-11T13:48:00.002+08:00

"So I try to find the melody as beautiful as you"

i'm a tone deaf :(

hey !!
you're such a wonderfully fine, utmost gorgeous & taitai-alike lady
the fantabulous smile you put on your face everytime my eyes met yours
the hi and the bye you greeted me always
makes me love going to sentosa
kekeke

2008-11-10T14:18:00.001+08:00

it takes a boy to make mistakes
yet, it takes a MAN to admit his mistakes

am i still a boy?

2008-11-09T01:25:00.022+08:00

Went to Singapore Biennale 2008
A few thing i thought would be interesting to share
Its definitely a GREAT EXPERIENCE
Looking at these art pieces and trying to understand each of them
although there are some which really *uhmm*
Don't know how to describe
Maybe "some of the art would turn you off"
All of a sudden, I start to appreciate these art pieces
Not from an art student's point of view
But rather, a very psychological way of looking at them
Trying to find out and discern what the artists were thinking when they were making their art pieces
and what's the message they want to bring across
Well, i believe that after all, art is not really a "something"
But, a thing which comes from the way you look at them
The artist may put a name/title/theme to his/her art pieces
But, you may perceive in the other way
Hahahax!!
some of the art pieces which i found quite interesting

"島中島"

"海中海"

this is a singapore map !
you can see everyone pasted their tags on the map

the one i put was beside the GREEN TP
TP? BLAZERS
LOl

don't really want to remember these photos
basically, they are daily product which one could get from Iran or some having-war country
sad life
the kids have to grow up using guns
haix
the world would be a better place
if everyone learn to appreciate each other
and put other before self
i'm in the process of learning how to do it in a greater extend as well
good luck everyone

this is for LADIES :)
WAHAHAHAx!!
for myself as well :(

ALIENS invaded CITY HALL !!
HELP !
ghost buster helps?

this is also another interesting art pieces
there are two sides of each miniature trees/plants/flowers
one side is coloured black/white
while the other is being colourful
assuming the front side is the colourful side
when you looking at your problems
they seems BLACK & WIHTE
so dull
so troublesome
so irritating
when you start going round the problem
start from the side
you started to view your problems as PARTLY colourful
and when you eventually look at it from the front
all your problems seems
so colourful
so happy
i guess, it is only when we start viewing life from the positive side
everything would be wonderful, colourful and filled with happiness
i titled it
"煩惱與無慮"

i have something to say about these families photo
upon graduation from "i can't remember" art school
the artist went back to home and decided to reshoot the family photo which was taken when she was 12
there are a total of 5 photos being taken
the first one is the actual one
the rest of the four are photos of all the family members in different position but the clothes being wore at the position from the first photo remain unchange
hahaha
intersting isn't it?
i titled it

"What Decide Who You Are?"

"無聊﹑單調"

When you look at both of these photos
it's really very very real
i mean, PHOTO of course look real la
its not painting
WAHAHAHx !!
it looks like the girl is looking at me

A Glider without a Glider
"想擺脫束縛嗎?"

Can't really remember what this cupboard is about
but the artist was trying to say something about "dressing/draggin up"
something about gay and lesbian in Australia
anyway, i titled it

"平凡的外表,不平凡的內在"

anyway
i strongly encourage everyone should go to singapore biennale
it's such an interesting event to visit
definitely better than some singer's concert
gonna try to visit South Beach Development exhibition site
and esplanade bridge and other sites
quite impossible thou
busy with projects and training :(

2008-11-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

順應天命者悲
抗逆天命者死

i dont believe sia
you?

2008-11-07T01:04:00.002+08:00

「七彩祥瑞降於府地
繽紛彩雲蒞臨家丁」

玄虛匿於清明谷雨
唯獨正直曉其奧妙
我想你一如既往
依然無法明解嗎?

此時僵局已隱現
只因我
我﹐我﹐我。。。

2008-11-07T01:01:00.001+08:00

你是我最深愛的女人
你有最美麗的嘴脣
你擁有最動人的眼神
你帶給我幸福和快樂

-永邦-

2008-11-07T01:00:00.003+08:00

OK !!
i just realised something
previous post was the 666th post
666
number of satan !!
lOLx!!
now is the 667th
kekeke
next post will be the 668th
hopefully everything will be great from now on :)

2008-11-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

"The great dividing line between success and failure can be expressed in five words: "I did not have time."
-Franklin Field-

if it helps, just remember even xw took 3 yrs to do his lib then you will strive on.
-StarShifu-

2008-11-05T02:07:00.002+08:00

love is a feeling
love is a choice

i believe i loved you dearly honey
but, i couldn't fell in love with you
not because you're not worthy of me
but,
simply because
you deserve better :)

in any case
the self-less love
was actually
selfish love
therefore
i do not deserve ou

2008-11-05T02:05:00.003+08:00

my business etiquette photo
ahhx!!
i felt quite ugly actually
hahax !!
i was never good looking anyway ;)

2008-11-05T02:04:00.001+08:00

想愛卻不敢愛
是嗎?

2008-11-04T00:32:00.001+08:00

些許時候
些許希望目睹異性與我親密時
你心裡會有那
些許地
不是滋味
其實
我清楚﹐明白也知道
那只是我的白日夢
唉~

2008-11-02T20:54:00.002+08:00

Thank God for Joy's Microsoft Office 2007 !!
it made my studying easier
:)
woots !!

2008-11-01T02:15:00.000+08:00

今日
心情無比低落
除了啦啦隊之外
還有什麼是可以讓我開心嗎
金錢? 我不缺
女人? 或許吧
友誼? 或許吧
我也越來越不了解自己了
怎麼了?
怎麼越來越懶?
怎麼越來越惰?
讀書曾經是我的興趣
但是
現在
是一個苦差
唉
嘆啊嘆
嘆滄桑

2008-11-01T01:38:00.002+08:00

i don't know if my new classmates gonna read this
but, there's something i hope they could understand

i remember my accounting tutor tell me straight at my face
"Seems like you're much a loner sitting alone at this corner"
i was like "What the!! DIAO ~ -_-"" "
but well, i'm quite a loner in fact
i think that's the characteristics of cheerleaders
usually, cheerleaders mix more with cheerleaders
most of the time train and train and train
lesson end, go meet cheerleaders for lunch or dinner
outing, meet cheerleaders sentosa do stunts
especially for me this extreme case
i've got weikiang been helping me for the previous sem
lending me copy his lecture notes and his tutorial answers
previous sem was a disaster
basically, i took mc like drinking water
partly because, i'm sick and i'm LAZY because TOO TIRED from training
seriously lack of the damn disciplines
and the worst thing is that i don't interact with other HTM students
this caused a cause which show its results now
that i've got not much friends in HTM
and whenever there's a change of class
i'm always lost because i've got no friend to help me
of course, thank God for weikiang last sem
too bad this sem different class with him
*SHIT* !!
well, i hope i can blend well in this class
i take a long time to dwell among people
because, basically, i don't trust people :)
because, they don't worth my trust
that's how life works la
it's the same that they felt that i'm not trustworthy
well, its inevitable
i will try hard this sem
thou, i really need to try very very very hard to juggle between going to SENTOSA and TP for training
monday to thursday i need to go back to TP
friday is the only "REST DAY" which i'm going to use it for GYM-ing
ARGH !!
VEX-ed
SCARED !!
HUM JI now !!
haix ~
any good samaritan from my class could lend me a hand?
:|

2008-11-01T00:12:00.001+08:00

OH MY GAWD ~!!!
its only the end of 2nd week of this new semester
and i'm seriously feeling the STRESS and PRESSURES already
ARGH !!
i really need to stop doing things which i'm not supposed to do
and start doing things which i should be doing !!
RAWR !!
RETARDED SENTOSA COMP LABs are occupied like almost all the time
haix !!
no point sit here and blame everything else
things won't drop down from the sky anyway
so so so so demoralised
jiayou beh kenken

2008-10-31T10:33:00.002+08:00

曾經有一段至真的愛情擺在我面前
但是我沒有去珍惜
等失去的時候才後悔莫及
塵世間最痛苦莫過于此
如果天可以讓我再一次回頭的話
我會跟那女子說我愛她
若無論如何都得為那份愛加上一個期限
我希望是
一萬年

yeap !!
this is the very clique version way of saying you would love someone a hundred thousand years when you lose him/her
hahaha !!
thought that its been a long long time since i've heard such thing
its just
TOO CLIQUE already !!
so decided to post it
WAHAHAHAx !!
probably i would come out with something else when i got the time and when i'm in the mood
then we'll see how not-clique can it get
^^
anyway, its been a long time since i updated
busy and busy and busy
tired and tired and tired
new sem
new class
i'm a bloody loner again
lazy to interact with the class
lazy to communicate with them
its just a chore
seems like they are just not my type of people
am i like whining?
haix ~
woots
whatever makes you happy
:P

chair pop over !!
WAHAHAHAx !!
so fun

2008-10-23T05:52:00.000+08:00

Your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs to make you comprehend how beautiful you are
I know that I can't make you stay
But I would give my final breathe to make you understand how beautiful you are

2008-10-23T02:33:00.003+08:00

with sheer [endurance] and [spirit]
impossible is nothing

quoted from Kelwin's essay

anyone giving up yet?

2008-10-22T04:31:00.000+08:00

我不奢望原諒
因為
我自己也過不了自己那一關
更何況是別人
或許
說句‘對不起’
會有損自尊
但~
這並不代表我甭道歉
道歉了
還是未能原諒自己
然而
我只能逃避
虛偽地逃避著這一切
表面上
好像應付自如
其實
在心裡層面上
我已敗下陣來
可說是
潰不成軍
不堪一擊
我的‘相信’
越來越被否定
弱肉強食
好真實
文明的頂端
就是
自相殘殺嗎
這就是所謂的
真理嗎
總覺得
我的‘知道’
越來越無知
還是
我忘了‘真人性’
我缺乏那‘單純’
我少了那‘愚蠢’

不可能的可能性到底有多高?
您的答案是多少?

2008-10-18T22:53:00.002+08:00

very tired
but still decided to stay awake to post this

today's performance was a little not that satisfactory
in fact, I was very disappointed
let's face the fact
its bad
i bet everyone agree to it
BUT
IT OK, IT ALRIGHT
BLAZERS
BLAZERS
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT
5hours of training for this performance is not enough for us
but definitely not an excuse for not being able to do well
whatever it is
this time is bad
next time will be BETTER !!
agree? :)
well, after all
we're still a bunch of young peeps who are still in the process of learning
remember this

不經一事﹐不長一智

jiayou jiayou
^^

2008-10-17T20:16:00.002+08:00

prelude

in the making of any great hero
the very important attribute
is non other than

"SELF-BELIEF"

i've gotta start believe in myself
MORE

2008-10-17T01:31:00.003+08:00

i wonder if we could really pull through cheerobics2009 with this kind of attitude?

It's in fine print not because i don't want people to read
if it were not meant to be known
if won't appear here
will it dampen the spirit?
i don't think it will la
whatever i say is never important anyway
^^

2008-10-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

忘恩負義?

我知道你不爽我
其實哦
這種東西是雙方面的
你不爽我
我也不爽你啊
我知道
其實你試著諷刺我
但這對我來說是沒用的
我不是為了你存在
不管你怎麼說
我也無動于衷
你就繼續加油吧
加油加油 !! :)

2008-10-16T02:17:00.002+08:00

left lower back on Monday
upper right back on Tuesday
right lower back Wednesday
basically these are the injuries on the back i got since the beginning of the week
lOLx !!
told you i'm weak base liao
WAHAHAx !!
:p

Ouhx !!
i tell you guys !!
its really killing me
any slight movement my body move
its like being stab by a knife
(although i don't know how it feels like)
its just a metaphor i guess
loLx !!
damn pain
basically i can't sit
i mean i can't sit and then move around
lying down would the safest
RawR !!
i think its swollen and maybe its more like what mich said "protruding"
(did i spell it correctly?)
in any case
wonder if i can train tomorrow?
whole body injured
ohya !!
not forgetting my left eye kena elbowed by candy, SWOLLEN-ed
left brain kena punch by suhui
these accidents repeat itself quite a few times
lOlx !!
haix !!
i think i damn lousy sia
injured everywhere
like some retarded old man
RawR !! !! !! !! !!
SAVE ME HONEY DADDY GOD
lOlx !!

2008-10-15T04:00:00.002+08:00

i shall do some casual updates

WAHAHAHAx!!
been doing B.Toss for the past two days
OH MY GOD
i think i used the right leg muscles
they are all damn aching now
especially my thigh, hamstring and the BUTT there de muscles
walk up and down of stairs is really a chore man i tell you
lolx
but i guess more B.Toss to come eh
hohohohox !!
B.Toss is easier than Elevators la !!
TOSS and CRADLE nia
Elevators still need to TAHAN there
then plus especially when you got flyers who don't know how to lock ankles, hip not straight, body not straight
pheeew
its really torturing
but well
its all because BASES are WEAK ma
guys are tiny little living creature in this "DARK" cheerleading world
thank God
sometimes we get to choose which flyer to fly with
WAHAHAHAx !!
fat, heavy, no technique?
well, don't really care if i can only base lighter and better flyers
because, i'm a WEAK BASE mah
WAHAHAHAx !!
those fatter, heavier and not so good flyers
let those STRONG
or GOOD ATTITUDE
or WILLING TO BE TORTURED
bases to do it
WAHAHAHAx !!
EVIL sia me
YAR !!
i'm evil
who ask you guys don't want to train hard in the beginning
hahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaha ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
but at the same time
you also must think this way
good bases pair with good flyers then can achieve more
right?
of course
good bases pair of NOT SO GOOD flyers is GOOD as well
because, they can guide the flyers, right?
but, what if flyers is that kind
"Cannot scold, cannot criticise, slow learner"?
then how?
OF COURSE give up and move on FIRST la
next time got time then come back for them RIGHT?
BUT, well,
i don't think its time for this kind of shit now
we've passed this stage
I GUESS?
HAHAHAHAx !!
anyway, after the thresh out
the atmosphere during training is lighter now right?
hehehex !!
less scoldings
HMMM, i don't see any scoldings actually
lOLx !!
nahx !!
lazy to continue with the story
i will work hard and harder and harder from now on

2008-10-15T03:25:00.002+08:00

WELL WELL WELL ~
there are times when people doubt you for what you can do
then i guess
its time to show people what you are capable of
or you can just put them aside and FOCUS on what you're doing
what comes around
goes around
you doubt my ability
i doubt yours as well
get it?
but we all know who's the better one here
is it me?
is it you?
c'mon
whatever it is
just shut up and train
just shut up and DO
if it's because of pride
if it's because that you don't want me ADMIT that i'm superior than you
i will ROFLMAO
because you put your priority at the wrong place
and most importantly
we have an answer in our heart
whether i'm able or am i not able
we all have an answer
everyone is DISPENSABLE
am I more DISPENSABLE than YOU
OR
are YOU more DISPENSABLE than ME?

there are always people behind you
trying to catch up with you
its your choice
whether to let them reach you and surpass you
or maintain the momentum and keep the fight

go and think about it
word* without works is dead
sometimes
there are works
but, its just not enough
if you realised
you are no longer a concern to me
if you never understand where am i coming from
and keep thinking that i'm being sarcastic
hahahax!!
grow up my dear friend
if that's how you look at our 'FRIENDSHIP'
i mean if that's how you look at me
then there isn't much thing we can talk here
grow up la
not young liao can?
don't claim that you're mature when you're not
HAHAHAx!!

2008-10-12T04:14:00.002+08:00

many many thanks to [visitors] who have been visiting my blog faithfully

i know its random
because i just realised that quite a number of people visit my blog very often

:)

2008-10-10T12:38:00.006+08:00

when a problem or fault arise
nobody will ever want to take blame for that
i mean, under normal circumstances
man are selfish and defensive
people will protect themselves
people will blame others for all the problems
it is perfectly normal for man to do that
but, i don't think this is the way to live your life
if you want to live your life with greatest satisfcation
"do unto others what you want others to do unto you"
if you want people to be considerate
you first gotta be considerate
if you want to make more friends
you first gotta be friendly
when will people ever learn that we should always
SIT BACK, RELAX, and do some REFLECTIONS
hourly, daily, weekly, monthly, yearly
with reflections, comes with evaluations
analytical skills improved when you start analysing the situation
solutions will be formed
and changes will be the products
reflections is not REFLECTING on what others have done
reflections is not EVALUATING other people's fault
but reflection should be, by right, thinking of what are the things we ourselves had done it right or wrong
i know its hard to do so
because we all still have a very selfish immature mind set that the world revolve around us
probably there are people who don't think this way anymore
but, you may not think this way
sometimes, you might be behaving in this manner
that's when you need to do reflections
the more reflections you do
the more mature you can become
and the more things you will know
not only about yourself
also about others
because you don't think of yourself first
you think of others before self now
there's nothing wrong in thinking that the other party is at fault sometimes
but first thing first
have you ever considered yourself being the source of any fault or problem?

nobody is perfect

if you seek forgiveness
you gotta give even more forgiveness
if you seek love
you gotta give even more love
if you seek grace
you gotta give even more grace

isn't this the way of life?

we all know the importance of communicating
but, how many of us are really willing to communicate?
how many of us are actually holding on to secrets which we never share with our friends?
how many of us claim that we loved each other as friends, yet, do not treat each others as one?
our actions reflects them all
there's always a mark there
which marks where the relationship will stay
many times we keep telling others that they don't understand us
do you ask yourself that many times that why didn't we open ourselves up and tell others more about ourselves?
unless you are willing to open up to others
then don't say that people don't understand you
because you didn't even give them the chance to
so, where you want that mark to be at?
it takes two hands to clap
:)

2008-10-10T02:21:00.003+08:00

honey !!

if i'm the general
i would make you my major

i make the general decisions
you make the major decisions
because i love you and i trust you

woots !!

我是將
你是士

我說將(這樣)好嗎?
你說士(是)

loLx !!
interesting eh ?
hahahaha !!
:D

2008-10-10T02:19:00.002+08:00

me and the lovely bride
michelle je
wish you and david
BAI TOU XIE LAO

2008-10-08T01:06:00.002+08:00

its not very nice yet actually
flaws like
1. Jumping Backward
2. Never pull FULL
3. Never land clean

need to work on it more !! RawR

2008-10-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

越想著要贏﹐要超越自己
反而更容易絆倒自己
順其自然才是要點

人們都妄想自己成為別人心目中的英雄
其實
自己先成為自己心目的英雄才是關鍵吧

always my beloved

2008-10-06T00:33:00.000+08:00

2008-10-05T18:01:00.001+08:00

沒想到
我竟說出了這種喪氣話
是樂觀呢
還是懦弱
我也不清楚
只知自己
好像又讓自己與別人失望了
我﹐
連稱呼都不敢叫了
因為﹐
好像有點愧對你的名
真的嗎?
真的有那麼多雙眼睛在看著我嗎?
其實﹐
別對我抱太多的期望好嗎?

2008-10-05T01:50:00.000+08:00

當我潦倒時
你伸出援手扶我一把
基於這點﹐我欠你的就夠多了
所以﹐我不想把你當替代品
因為那對你不公平
如果你只是一個當我潦倒時才需要的人
那我要的不是你
我不想成為陳世美
我不想因為一時的曖昧而促成大錯
因為
沒信心
不是對你沒信心
而是對自己沒信心
希望你可以諒解

2008-10-05T01:42:00.000+08:00

看著心愛的人在自己的面前受挫
自己卻無能為力
那感覺已不好受
若看到心愛的人為了自己而受挫
我想那感覺會更不好受吧
唉唉唉~
孩子們﹐加油吧 !!
感情路
沒一段是風平浪靜的
但同時﹐每一段都不會是平凡無奇的
決定權在於你的手
你決定這條路的盡頭

[命運在你手中,不在別人口中]

2008-10-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

這一路走來
越走越辛苦
越走越無力
越走越無能
別再為了無謂的比試而掙扎
別再為了無謂的自尊而努力
這都是些將你絆倒的絆腳石
只要集中在你的目標上就好

人格上出現了問題嗎?
性格上出現了問題嗎?
還是﹐我還是我?

[一言難盡]

2008-10-02T21:38:00.005+08:00

went to the CAS AGM
let's seeeeeee
it was just a very simple AGM
don't even need to cast a vote at all
all the nominees has no contestant
but what was inspiring was the speech by Mr.KelvinChua
[think global & position yourself globally]
[teamwork]

met a lot familiar faces
of course both star shifu and ZM shifu were there
know most of them except a few young and uprising stars
OK, not as if i'm very old
i'm young in the cheerleading world BUT i'm not a star
i'm not ready to be part of the committee
probably two years later :)

this meeting up with 'OLD FRIENDS' reminds me of something
long long time ago during the first NDP meeting at TP
when we're on our way home
we were talking to WeiCheng and Neville
they told me something like
IF, ONE TOSS TO HAND IS CONSIDERED ONE DOLLAR
THEN ACES PROBABLY COULD BUY AN APARTMENT AFTER ALL THESE YEARS
so, now, i'm at where i was
probably better by a little bit
TODAY, i ask myself again, how many houses/apartments/condo i [DESIRE] to buy at the end of my cheerleading life?
i couldn't give myself an answer
but all i know its i want ALOT
how about YOU? my dear fellow cheerleaders out there?

this is a letter to myself

Dear Myself,

Hey Ken, I think its about time for you to wake up from your long sleep. Train up yourself physically, mentally & emotionally for the future that awaits you. Remember you always tell people that no hard work, no results? I think you should work harder from now on. You haven't been improving, or rather you have not been achieving any breakthrough. Keep in your mind what Star Shifu and ZM Shifu had taught you. Engrave them in your heart and mind. Proper techniques, how to gym, exercises to do at home, discipline yourself to do what you need to do. I know you lost the drive. It happens to everyone. Sometimes, somehow, somewhere along the journey, we lost them. As long as you found them back, you will do just fine. For now, probably you have yet found them, but at least do something which can help you to regain that drive, that motivation and that PASSION which you once had, the silly thoughts of SIMPLY wanting to improve and improve and improve. C'mon Ken, you know yourself the BEST. I won't tell you that YOU CAN DO IT. Because I know you can and I'm assured that you believe you can. Don't give up, my dear Ken. NEVER give up!! You may be slow, but as long as you're walking, you're still moving towards your goal(s). JiaYou !!

Sincerely,
Yourself

WHO ARE THOSE PEOPLE THAT WILL STAND AT THE WINNER STAND?
[THOSE WHO NEVER GIVE UP]

2008-10-02T16:29:00.002+08:00

i've got a HUMAN brain
you?
probably a human brain as well
i mean RETARDED human brain

2008-10-01T03:35:00.001+08:00

are you sure you're [MOVING ON]?

or

you're just simply [RUNNING AWAY]?

don't dare to face it?
sorry, i didn't know that you ain't ready for this shit
sorry :(

2008-10-01T02:19:00.003+08:00

Don't you see?
I'm not the only one for you,
But you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone.

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight.

dedicating to the one who's always there telling me again and again that
"Ken! You're not a weak base, ok?!!
Hahahax!!
Thanks Honnnn ~
Thanks for always being there telling me things like that
Thanks so much
love you honn :)

2008-09-30T01:52:00.004+08:00

"progress might be slow, but as long as you don't stop trying."
someone told me this
and it encourages me quite a lot
thanks

"everything has a beginning, just keep trying"

to be able to stay positive when everything is not-so-right
easy
to stay positive when the world crushing in
extremely difficult

i'm losing the drive
i don't know what to do anymore

2008-09-29T14:36:00.005+08:00

don't know if i should really be going for a break
[I want to take a break]
people who says that sounded like a loser to me
YET, now I'm tempted to take this break for good
not because i want to rest and enjoy my life
but because i felt that its about time to improve on myself
so that i can be a somebody to the team
but whichever the case is
don't think can go for this break
the team still need me i guess
Jen said :"Senior mah"
Hahahax !!
I hope I'm treated like more than a senior
I'm not a coach
Probably I would appreciate it if I'm treated like a teacher? Mentor?
Sounds abit BHB I know

Thanks Jen
Always that well respected Captain Jen, at least to me
Hope could chill out soon
So I could gain some INSIGHT from you and others
Sorry we didn't go out on sunday because i'm working !!
lOlx !!

Edwin from RevoDesigns
Had a casual talk with him yesterday night
He's right about a lot of things
I mean, older than me, of course know more things than me
He gave me a lot of advices and suggestions
Surprisingly, someone who do not feel that cheerleading is just some stupid retarded CCA which takes study time away
In fact, he told me if that's my interest, then go for it
And, even gave me business ideas base on cheerleading
Interesting ideas
Probably I should work on them

When You're The BEST*
People Will [Shut Up] & [Respect You]

*dying to be the best

2008-09-29T13:59:00.002+08:00

i'm not Mr.Know-It-All

BUT, at least

Mr.Know-Half-of-All

PS: Don't try to hide things from me, my [FRIENDS]

2008-09-27T19:32:00.003+08:00

I'm [utterly] disappointed with myself
I did not know that I've got so little influence over my team
Simple instructions I gave, they do not follow
Simple teachings I taught, they do not learn
Simple respect I want, they do not give

Maybe you guys feel that I've got nothing to offer anymore

2008-09-26T20:25:00.004+08:00

i'm sorry hunn, that i hurt you
its my fault hunn
its my fault
i'll make it up to you
give me a chance to do so please hunnn
please
i love you

2008-09-26T20:16:00.002+08:00

oh yes !!
i forgot to talk about something very important
managed to talk to Ms.Flyer after so so so so so long
she cracked joke that made me laugh, LIKE FINALLY
she usually crack jokes that are not funny at all
it's been a long time since we last chatted
guess we're both busy
i mean she's even more busy than me
sad to say
it seems that i'm still at where i was back then
nothing much improved
nothing much changed
more hard works to put it
*I GUESS*
it was a great chat thou

OKIES !!
gonna go out meet larry for dinner and WORK as a security at EA Games kiosk at MARINA SQUARE from 12am to 9am
and then next day 9pm till 9am
and the following day from 9pm till around 7-8am again
it's going to kill me i guess
lucky i D/L-ed quite a number of MOVIES to kill time
ohya, i bought some chocolates, biscuits and snacks
NOT THOSE UNHEALTHY WAN !!
WAHAHAHAx !!

seeyou guys around !!
:)

2008-09-26T00:14:00.003+08:00

i've tried
to prevent the binding of both souls
BUT
the ties is so strong that both souls are attached
emotionally, spiritually and physically
there's nothing more i could do
but be an enzyme to the interaction
:)

2008-09-25T12:31:00.001+08:00

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

- Famous Last Words (MCR)

2008-09-25T02:06:00.002+08:00

在我國、高中的時候
家裡人就常常說
等你們大學畢業
就要自己養自己了
而我也一直牢記這樣的觀念
一直去思考現在要怎麼做
才有辦法在大學畢業後
跳脫家人維持你生計的圈圈
而且我在國、高中時
要面對的不但是
能不能上場比賽
能不能練的好的壓力
回家也是得面對家人對我的些微不解
例如說
你把家裡當旅館是不是，早早出門這麼晚才回家
你再受傷一次就別練了，給我轉學
你念體育班到底能做甚麼，誰誰誰都在問我們說為什麼讓你念體育班
種種況狀
但我不曾放棄我想追求的目標
一直到現在
雖然大學也念了七年
但至少
我的未來路稍微大了些、寬了些
假設我當初被種種的指責與壓力打敗了
那現在的我才是真正的失敗
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
當別人都在迷惘時
如果你知道你在做些甚麼
你將會比別人更有機會站上成功的線
家人或許是好意
家人或許是擔心
但你總有家人看不到你的時段
那時候
你在做甚麼
不會有人比你，更清楚你自己
當然
你可以給自己一佰個理由放棄
也可以給自己一個理由
堅持下去

OK !! i cut this out from XIAOMAO's blog
its really a good entry
never fail to inspire me
never fail to keep me going
he really think through before he blog it out
very clique yet applicable anytime anywhere anything

you can give yourself a hundred reason to give up
or ONE reason to fight on

2008-09-24T22:44:00.002+08:00

[COWARD] die many times before their death;
The [VALIANT] never taste of death but once

-William Shakespeare

i think i'm a coward

2008-09-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

別做現代陳世美

2008-09-24T02:15:00.003+08:00

我自認
[問心無愧]
他們[放棄]
他們[半途而廢]
他們不夠[韌性]
若不告訴他們的錯
編織[謊言]
讓他們認為他們可以繼續[任性妄為]
一而在﹐再而三地[遷就]他們
這會幫他們什麼嗎?
是你們[太懦弱]了吧
你根本不了解事態的嚴重性
沒[紀律]的[團隊]
做得了什麼?
沒什麼 !!

子不教,父之過;
教不嚴,師之惰

身為較為有[經驗]的
是有責任的
審查時
你想看見你的師弟妹們用那[失望的眼神]
[怨]你為什麼沒努力教導他們嗎
如果這是你想要的
我[無言以對]
更重要的是
面對你時
我可是一點都沒有[諷刺]你的意思
你想太多了
我只是很氣為什麼你學地這麼慢
更氣自己為什麼幫不了你
覺得失望的應該是我吧﹐ 親愛的?

去想想
去反省反省吧
如果我真錯了
那我離開好了

看不懂?
那是你不夠格

all i'm looking for are [ELITES]
people who are [willing] to learn
people who are [willing] to improve
people who are [willing] to put in effort
people who are [willing] to go the extra mile
not people who [refuse] to change
not people who act as if that they are good and [push blame] on others
not people who are OK to [remain] at where they are
if you're one of them
then you can help the team by pressing 'PLAY' for us
thank you so very much

remember this lovely

YOU CAN NEVER SOAR LIKE AN [EAGLE]
IF YOU MIX AROUND WITH [TURKEYS]

2008-09-23T03:45:00.003+08:00

i don't understand that smiley face of yours
i think it'd be better if i leave you alone
i no need to agitate myself
i can help other people more since they want to be helped
not saying that you don't want to be helped
just that the ways we do things are SIMPLY different
you couldn't take it
sorry, my apology
you can always find others to teach you
well, if you think that what i'm asking you to do are redundant
you can don't do it
because you gotta first believe in what you doing before you can do it greatly
its ok :)
we'll find out at the end of the tunnel

~~~

OK !! I think i really sucks at teaching cheerleading
all i've been doing is only punishing you guys
i think that isn't a good way
because it doesn't seems to be getting any result
be more patience like XingWei shifu?
or get-things-done type like ZhaoMing shifu?
*confused*
both work out for different people
if i don't punish, people don't learn
if i punish, people du lan
shit man
its really bad to be the BETTER one in the team
XingWei shifu said people will understand eventually as time pass by
and that people will appreciate the effort
i don't really see it anyway
you said because i'm your tudi
so you're expecting a lot more from me
and especially when i'm the better ones in the team
i wish i could be there up to your expectation
really
i wish i could be that good
but the matter of the fact is i'm not good enough yet
i can't even pass my own assessment on myself
nothing is ever enough for me
i deserve the best
for that
i have to become the best
haix
it's really sucks la
sometimes, i wish i could be nobody
not saying that i'm a somebody now
i won't fight for anything
thus, people won't be talking & bitching about me
is it because i care about what others say?
of course i care
because i want to know how people think of me
and changes myself accordingly if there's any fault
certain people whom comments are valuable to me appears worthless to them so they decided to keep it to themselves
sorry people
you are not helping
well, its not the first time anyway
i don't really want to care anymore
i clearly spell out your mistakes
if you still refuse to change
probably you can PRAY to GOD to CHANGE you
well, it seems sarcastic
actually, it isn't
because, if you do not help yourself
GOD couldn't help you either
shifu say "give before taking, give and you shall receive"
i guess i haven't give enough yet
haix !!
need to gain more knowledge i guess
i want to open my eyes more
please help me
thanks
quite a lesson learned from shifu
realised that there are some perceptions and ideas which are not so right
i guess its about time for a great REVELATION
jiayou ken !!
GO GO GO !!
people are behind you cheering you on
well, oh by the way, i could still laugh and smile and cheer even without you in my life
afterall, its not the first time that friend disappoint me
they've done it dozens of times

byebye~

I MISS JEN
I MISS ANDRA
I MISS AMY ONG
I MISS SERENA ONG
I MISS LENNY
I MISS MAGNIES !!
can we go out on sunday?
stupid jen and andra please better make sure you're FREE
WAHAHAHAx !!
:D :D :D :D

JIAYOU FOR TRYOUTS !!

2008-09-19T12:59:00.004+08:00

唉﹐無言以對

挫敗感

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊 !!

煩死了

怎麼人人都在往前跑

我卻在原地踏步

the hardest thing is not BELIEVING yourself

but BELIEVE in yourself

when you do not believe yourself

2008-09-19T12:59:00.002+08:00

[PISSED]

why can't people just follow damn instructions given to them?
damn pissed
not once nor twice
its a lot of times
like a pure retard like that
RAWR !!
stop pissing me off lahx
RoaR !!
or is it that you know i won't really angry at you that's why you keep pissing me off?
i tell you
IT's REALLY IRRITATING lohx !!
RAWR !!
*BITE YOU, BITE YOU*

YOU STUPID KANASAI CHICKEN NEH NEH POK GIRL
*pui*

2008-09-18T11:43:00.002+08:00

[no matter where we go, we start from where we are]

make a decision today
to make the place you're standing
a [starting] point
of a [journey]
to a whole new world

woots woots
despite my injured fingers
i shall train even harder
i can't train arms now
so i shall FOCUS on my legs
WAHAHAHAx!!
FBT* here i come

*Fat Big Thigh

2008-09-17T21:01:00.014+08:00

Haziq's gay photo
i've proven to people that Haziq the sailor boy is gay :)

michelle with her brackets on

michel

I swear JUSTIN's butt is BIG
OMG !!

cheryl teo

cheryl teo act cute sia -.-

candy & simin

candy

on our way to ACS

ACT CUTE siol

changi airport sending candy off

nice photo yea?
thanks to justin :)
called it the NEWLY WED going for HONEYMOON
lOL -.-

2008-09-17T19:55:00.003+08:00

Xena: The Warrior Princes
was watching it just now
what a great woman who fought so hard
女中豪傑
sort of reminds me of ruth
hmmm
heard quite a bit about her from ZM shifu
his stunting partner ma
ZERO leh :)
felt that she had put in a lot of effort and worked hard to reach where she is today
and most amazing thing is that she's still improving at a constant rate
don't know
just felt that in the midst of creating legend
people like xiwen, lenny, dion, xuewei shimu and etc
we always missed out those who are not so very high profile
but the effort and hard work they put in definitely is not much lesser than others
so what's the different between a person who became a legend and a person who did not, even though they may put in the same amount of effort?
i hope i could be a legend as well
i hope 5, 10 years down the road
there will be people starting to say that
"You know that Ken was such a legend and blah blah blah yada yada yada"
i hope i can evolve into someone who is not only good at doing it
but also someone who's good at teaching it as well
i hope i can be someone like shifu
i hope one day, my juniors will come to me and say i think you've done very well in teaching and imparting your skills to us :)
and also every time when people praises him
he'll always remain very humble and say he's not that good :)
i want, not i hope, to remain HUMBLE when i become better in the future
ohya, there are times when shifu got very proud of his skills thou
that's when we challenge each other
hahaha
at that time, he will be VERY proud of his SKILLS and ABILITIES
and he will ask me am i sure that i can win him
lOLoLOl
hahahahahahax :P
or is it called confident?
seriously i hope, I HOPE only la
one day, my name will be ranked together with those PROS in the industry now
people like XingwWei shifu, ZhaoMing shifu, Andra the Superman, KC Cupie Machine, Jen the HOT BOD (haha) and many many many more
however, currently fingers injured
so i guess this dream is stagnant
hahahaha

i desire
that's why there's effort
effort creates results
and when there's result
its time to bring dream into reality

i want to have the [POWER]
to bring [DREAMS]
into [REALITY]
do you?

i think that power is called [HARDWORK]

for that,
i need to [BELIEVE] in myself

2008-09-16T10:16:00.003+08:00

HAIXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
sorry jasmine
i know i shouldn't be saying this loud if not you will feel guilty again
just take it that these are just facts that happen in life

woke up in the morning
pain in the finger woke me up
my mum came over to pass me something
then i told her that i injured my finger
and her first reaction is :"AIYO, need to spend money again" :(
haix !!
sad life
anyway, supposed to go to school SSM revision
but i didn't
i think i'm the only one who got supp paper for SSM
Mr.Tai called me
i was telling him i injured my finger and i'm going to see doctor
he asked me to go see doctor and get a MC
then go to school tomorrow see him at 9.30am
OMG !!
haix !!
need to pay two doctors
western doctor for MC
chinese doctor for RECOVERY
haix !!
sadness is filling into my life
sian !!
someone told me that [one sigh kills one angel]
i think i've murdered quite a lot of angels around me
anyway, thanks for chatting with me yesterday night
and bear with those [HAIX] and [SIAN]

2008-09-16T02:19:00.002+08:00

ok
haix ~
shit man
why am i so suay?
haix
i lazy to explain the incident again
haix
just when i'm going to go all out to get my lib
i was injured :(
bad timing i guess

2008-09-15T11:40:00.001+08:00

its perfectly OK to feel [INFERIOR] at times

as long as you keep [WALKING]

that's [COURAGE]

2008-09-13T17:51:00.003+08:00

F-U-C-K YOU Ken
F-U---C-K YOU

[WALK] no more !!
get up and [SPRINT]
don't stay down
DON'T STAY DOWN !!

Michelle JE marrying soon
05 October 2008

was talking to her in the morning
and suddenly we talked about my cheerleading
i was telling her that i'm training and gym-ing for about 6days/week and sunday is my rest day
she said 6days very hiong, is it because got competition coming
i told her NO but simply because i'm playing the catch up game with other teams in SG and shifus
she said :"And you still want to have a GF?"
i told her :"thats the point ma, i don't think i can have one :P"
i told her :"no matter how hard i trained it doesn't seems enough"
she replied :"SO GREEEEEEDY"
i told her :"Its not greedy, just hungry for improvement"

indeed, no matter how hard i trained, it doesn't seems that i'm improving at all
i only want improvement
yet it seems so far
it is indeed never enough
never ENOUGH
i think i did not work hard enough
again, how hard is hard?
to me, i think i've been slacking way too much this days
Ken, are you satisfied at TTH and extension?
Are you satisfied at TTE?
Are you satisfied?
or you want more?
its no use telling everyone that you want to do liberty when you're not even trying
don't be like a piece-of-shit
shifu say don't thank him until i got my liberty
i want my liberty
i want to say thanks to him
that desire, not because i want to prove to others that i'm good
but JUST the DESIRE that i want to get that achievement
i want it
I WANT IT
when your world breaks apart and your friends aren't there
will you blame them for not being there?
have you ever thought that they are not obliged to be there for you?
so what if they are your FRIENDS?
different people define FRIENDS differently
so i've learn to be independent
do not make others the source of encouragement
because when they fail to encourage you
you will fail
i've learn to encourage myself
pick myself up and walk again and again and again
YET, the time has come
how long more can i stay positive can encourage myself that i can do it
just how long more can i withstand failure?
just how long more can i accept failures in my life?

LEAVE-ME-ALONE please
i'll be fine after awhile
give me a min
thanks (:

2008-09-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

if you lose sight of your path
listen for the destination in your heart

2008-09-12T14:17:00.006+08:00

感覺上
身體似乎
就快承受不了激烈訓練的負荷了
真的超倦
這幾天不停地練
覺得似乎
好像應該休息休息了
所以決定不去開會了
哈哈哈哈
是時候逛逛街去了

原來我終究只是一個渴望與眾不同的[普通人]

唉
嘆滄桑

2008-09-12T14:17:00.005+08:00

HAHAHAx!!
OK READERS !!
i shall post an english entry yox!!

been gym-ing this few days
body is getting more and more tired
was not able to obtain my breakthrough yesterday night
quite pissed actually
being weak and not being able to stunt after gym is not a reason
in fact, a very lousy excuse
haix !!
WEAK
i need to train harder and gym harder
i go gym lose to XiaoLong sia
he's carrying more and heavier weight than me already
OMG !
XiaoLong improved so fast
now i need to play catch up game even with XiaoLong
SIAN
quite tired of cheerleads today
so decided to give the meeting a skip
going out with CC later
he pangseh-ed me
and made me gym alone at clementi gym just now
because he got diarrhea
aiya!! also not first time gym alone
gym alone is so FUN
HAHAHAx !!
i was the one always PS him wan
not he finally PS me liao
LOLOLOLOLx !! :)
let's have FUN today
BERMUDAs
MOVIES
LUNCH
CHIT CHAT
CHOCOLATE BAR, shall we?

ohya, met Ms.Jesse today to collect landyards and sticker
she invited me to go for church cheerleader's training at SP
probably will go down on wednesday
but couldn't commit because it clash with my own team's training
she said she needed more guys
c'mon CHC GUYS
are you a MAN?
CMN taught you to be a MAN right?
IF YOU ARE, join cheerleading and do a great performance for Asia Conference

2008-09-12T02:29:00.002+08:00

給予 ‘希望你知道這是給你的人’

怎麼了?
彼此間的關係演變成一種依賴﹑一種牽掛啦?
是不是好像難分難解的感覺啊?
都說了溝通是一切的起跑點
雖然不是很想理你們的事
因為你與他都這麼大了
不需要我來教吧
但是別說我沒警告哦
玩火必自焚
小心哦
玩火必自焚!!
別無法自拔時才來向我求救
我會以很不屑的眼神來回應你
因為這是你應得的
這事兒﹐沒什麼好氣的
你開心﹐你爽就好
祝你好運

2008-09-10T23:53:00.006+08:00

TRUE BLAZERS CHEERLEADERS?
TRUE?

see for yourself
more to come

ps: the font could not get any bigger, if not it would be as big as your screen :)

2008-09-10T02:10:00.002+08:00

‘因愛故生憂﹐因愛故生怖’

今夜
煙未曾離手
似乎
已無法忘我
好想
再瘋狂一次
煙酒
來狂歡吧!!

誰言別後終無悔
寒月清宵綺夢回
深知身在情長前
前塵不共彩雲飛

2008-09-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

回家路上
真的又想起了你
想起了那一段戀情
地久天長
永遠的永遠
存在嗎

這或許是你的心聲吧
牽著的手得來不易
我不願放開
想牽著你的手
親吻你的臉頰
輕聲說我愛你
隨著時間的流逝
帶著你勇闖地久天長

找到了這首詩
‘十里平湖霜滿天,
寸寸青絲愁華年。
對月形單望相護,
只羡鴛鴦不羡仙’

對了
都長這麼大了
也該是時候學著如何處理自己的感情了吧
別老是等著人來哄你好嗎
很煩吶

2008-09-09T01:56:00.002+08:00

YAY !!
600th entry

famous last words by MCR

' I am not afraid to keep on living '

' I am not afraid to walk this world alone '

for the first sentence, totally agree
second sentence, i think might get a little bit afraid if i were to walk this world alone
BUT, i think i will still walk it if i', required to walk alone
who know?

2008-09-09T01:04:00.001+08:00

如果懂得狠心，
就不會這麼傷心了吧
如果懂得假裝，
就不會這麼痛苦了吧
如果懂得不在意，
就不會麼這麼的自找麻煩了吧

quoted from yaling's blog
:)
i hope my fellow teammates could understand this
IF and only IF
^^

2008-09-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

Hey guys !!
I will be missing for these two days. Don't miss me PLEASE.
See you guys around soon

Cheers,
Ken

2008-09-06T01:39:00.001+08:00

是否自覺當初應聽勸?
當下需能者之時
卻無法得嘗所願
只怪初始之固執
造就今時之因果
好好反省反省吧

可恨的自己
怎能這麼無能
怎麼那麼沒用
如果你能夠更強一點
那意外就不會發生了
煩吶
煩死了
氣死我了

2008-09-05T01:15:00.000+08:00

懂得思考的人
才會成長
懂得檢討的人
才會進步

今天﹐你思考了嗎?
今天﹐你檢討了嗎?

2008-08-31T02:46:00.001+08:00

我不是萬中選一的奇才

我需要的就是那一股傻勁
只想著進步的那一股傻勁

2008-08-31T01:13:00.002+08:00

OK
hmmmm....
don't know how many times I need to emphasize on this
"I think I'm really a VERY LUCKY guy to be able to meet my ShiFus and being able to learn from them"
Basically, everyday when I talk to them, I will learn something from them. Be it Star or ZM.
Thou, ZM shifu has been missing. As we all know that you are one busy man. All the things which you've shared, especially the road of NTU Aces, they are precious experience to me. And today managed to talk to you again. Reminded me of the goal which I have, that is to overtake you. Quite cool isn't it? He welcome challenges and I challenged him. So what's so special about them? The special things about them is that they did not only teach me skills and techniques, they also teach me life-long values like think like a champion and believing in yourself. Thanks to Star, I was able to obtain my breakthrough for my mind today. This breakthrough in my mind will seriously bring me far and i mean VERY FAR. I think I prefer to write in mandarin.

謝謝星師傅
雖然您說等我大有成就是才來謝您
但是
我還是想先謝謝您又再一次地讓我尋找到我的突破
而且﹐這還是多麼重要的突破啊
成功地改變想法已經是一個很大很大的突破
怎能不知感謝呢?
或許您好像有一點點的失望
因為我不是那萬中選一的奇才
但我是那千中選一的不錯的人才哦
只有五成的天份
剩下的就靠努力吧
其實﹐當您說我不是那萬中選一的奇才時
還真的有那麼一點點的失望耶
不過﹐沒關係
我還有那五成的天賦
哈哈哈
越寫就越覺得老套
好!!
不寫了
就讓時間與奮鬥來證明一切
我將會勝過你所有的一切的一切
等著瞧好了
到最後的那一刻
我會站在勝利者的舞台上
大聲的說
"我是KEN"

2008-08-29T03:03:00.002+08:00

Yeapx !!
was wondering should i or should i not blog
actually nothing much really happening
ok, i remember once
me, candy & weihao walking pass a group of people practicing something
me :"Are they karate or taekwondo? i think taekwondo"
WeiHao :"No, i think its karate. Curx taekwondo got the word taekwondo FIDERATION on the back of their shirt"
WTH is FIDERATION?
hahahax :)
a lot of joke from XIAOLONG !!
hahahahahahahax~

Okies
i really did a lot of stuff today actually
but i dont like to report my day according to what had happened
i only say my feeling
i'm glad that i brought them down to our training
they've been a great help i hope
i think so bah
since most of us learned & improved
hope to have more sessions next time
thank you shifu for challenging
i accept your challenges and will definitely work towards it
and ONE DAY, eventually
i will overtake everyone
no longer
"MY NAME IS KEN"
but
"I AM THE BEST"
*when i do BT*
LOLOLOLOLOLX!!
hahahahahahahahhax!!

ohya, how about
"I'M THE KING OF THE WORLD" during BT?
hahahahahax !!!!!!!!!!!!!
OKIES ~ enough !! tired like POS today
really!! seriously so so so damn TIRED
body sure ache like hell tml -.-
GG

nitey nitex
i wana go play game :(

2008-08-28T02:49:00.001+08:00

OHYA
i realised something
my chinese has been improving
more and more people couldn't understand what i'm writting already
LOLOLOLOLOL
it was meant for you all to understand actually
haix !!
anyway, i realised that no people tag my blog liao
so sad
lOLx !!

Cheers,
Ken

2008-08-28T02:44:00.000+08:00

回家路上
想起曾經說過的話
‘一年內我就會追上您們’
想想一下
怎麼好像不可能的感覺
想想最近是超懶的叻
受傷了﹐就連一些些基本的運動都免了
都快一個月了
雖然腳傷還沒完全康復
但大致上已無大礙
好像自己也沒什麼真的努力過吧
或許曾經奮鬥過吧
可能休息太久了吧
竟然失去了動力
多謝星師傅的教導
原來他們下過的苦工跟我的比起來簡直差多了
學了很多
原來您是做到累才停的
佩服佩服
讓我再次地找到了我的動力
是超有動力的叻
總覺得自己超幸運的
自己明白就好
加油加油加油
向 [自由] 前進

登峰造極

2008-08-27T12:52:00.000+08:00

又下雨了
超憂鬱的叻
播著快節奏的歌
心里﹑腦里還是會想起一些些不為人快的文章
星師傅說的一點兒都沒錯
在隊友心里我可能佔了一點點位置
但當我把自己放在全國里
怎麼顯得那麼渺小啊
還有過著雙重身份﹐雙重生活
早為微小的辦公職員
晚為熱情的啦啦隊員
為之嘆也

思緒又亂了
寫不了

在此獻上愚詩一首

萬千山海阻帝行
千山萬水擾帝軍
帝王千斬殺無赦
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何時方能登峰造極

2008-08-26T21:47:00.001+08:00

hello fatfat
我了解你有難言之隱
該知已明
無需知也
知也無益