oh man
all of a sudden
just felt that
i'm so lousy
am i really progressing quick?
star shifu told me i considered progress fast liao
but didn't i feel it?
comparing to others
i'm like still here
i mean
yes, i did improved
but it doesn't seems enough for the period spent
i should really work harder especially on my arms
weak arms and shoulders
more handstands and handstand push ups
more military press
more arnold press
more GYM workouts !!
no more excuses !!
RawR !!













heard something in Graham's car just now
"When one person is not loving you the way you want them to, that doesn't mean that they are not loving you with all they have"

probably,
we've loved each other in such a great different and wrong manner
that's why we ended up in this state right now
whatever it is
there's nothing much i can do
i tried to salvage it
but, you're not trying
and thus, therefore, i conclude that
i want things to stay this way
even if it changes in the future
it will only because that we've distant away from each others
i think its a good ending