Last week CG meeting talks about DISAPPOINTMENT.
Then how do we handle disappointment which comes from the feeling that God is disappointed with us?
It may be just a feeling, but how many knows that it might be true that God really disappointed with us?These are all just STUPID THOUGHTS.






















I'm expected to rise up to be a CGL.
What a burden that you people placed on my shoulder.
Many thinks that's just the procedure which you must go through.
I always procrestinate. So how?
I procrestinate. How?
You are doing it unto the Lord, God will strengthen you.
You people wanted me to go this far and even further.
You People often told me that I have what it takes.
C'mon, rise up man. Now it's the time.
But all this can only be done when one have a right relationship with God.
I do not feel that I have a right relationship with Him yet.
So I refuse to do what you people expect me to do.



























On The Other Hand~

































Despite all my thoughts.
God still telling me
God :" C'mon man, you can do something for me, yes you can, yes you can"
Me :" Lord, I can't"
Do I have no faith?
I do not know.










































Will I backslide one day?



































Because I'm disappointed with myself that I could do nothing for You.



















How long and how much more will I fight?






















I Do Not Know.




































ROAR !!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!


























Can You hear the outcry of my soul?
Can You hear it?