05 Dec 2005
In Jesus Name```
Gladly today we have Sister Robin Harfouche as our service special guest to talk. In the beginning of the Praising, God had already touched when we sing Salvation Is Here. The lyrics can never be so real to me like this ever. Chorus: cause I know my God saved the day and I know his word never fail and I know my God made a way for me. My God made a way for me. My God “made” a way for me. And God’s word never fails. See that? “Never FAILS”. And Bridge 1 Salvation is here, salvation that died just to set me free. Salvation that “DIED” just to set me “FREE” It’s so real to me especially the situation that I am in right now. God is always ready to help us, to make a way for us out of our bad situation. And He who set us free is Jesus the Son of God. However, thou God promise us that He’d help us, most crucial thing is that you, yes it’s you must DESIRE and ASK for His help. Anyway, when the service actually starts, I get my Bible and my notebook ready and waiting excitedly for the word that she’s going to preach. But to my amazement, she did not do as I expected. But rather she shared her testimony, a strong and powerful and amazing and wonderful testimony. As she sharing, my tears flows out, but of course, I paisehx mahx. So I wiped it away and tried to keep myself not that emotional. But I failed to do so, because as she continue sharing my tears will just keep on flowing out then I look at Ray, a brother whom sitting beside me, I laughed.
Then at the later part of the day, I met someone, someone who despises me, someone who look down on me, someone who “jealous” of me. I do not know, but I’m going to prove that someone that I’m not of what he thinks that I am. But I’m someone who belongs to God and of whom God will not give up on. No matter what may come my way, I’m running after God.
Lest you devils come against me
In Jesus Name Be Silence You Devilssssss
08 Dec 2005
Sicky``
Ahhhhhx. It was 2pm in e morning or should I say in midnight. I walked home from my friend’s place and out of a sudden it started to rain and rained heavily. It’s been a long time that it ever rain so heavily, I was so excited. Finally has a chance to play with water, rain water, water from the sky. I was feeling extremely ok before I slept, after I woke up I had headache, I think because I do not have enough sleep. Anyway, it was a wonderful day at Expo. Thou the presence of God was not that strong as compare to our premise at Jurong west, His tangible presence still touches my heart.
Hahax…
10 Dec 2005
Prayer Meeting``
Early in the morning at 10.50am, my dear son Yang Hong called me asking whether I will be going for Prayer Meeting. Then I realised that I was late for the meeting time which is 10.45m at Serangon. And he say: “You better don’t late because Brother Edmund is coming” Was terrified!! Hahax.. But Thank God that I live quite near Serangon, it was about 20 minutes MRT ride from Chinatown. When I came out from Serangon Station, I saw Wei Jian. So I decided to go together with them. The Prayer Meeting starts at about 12pm, and the Praise and Worship were lead by Sister Xiao Ting while the actual Prayer Meeting was lead by Brother Edmund. After Praise and Worship, Brother Edmund shared a word from John 5:2-9. It was about a paralyzed man sitting at the miracle pool for 38 years and waiting to be healed. When Jesus saw him and asked him, he said he was there for 38 years but no one wanted to give him a hand to enter the miracle pool and be healed. Jesus healed him of course, but the story behind it was that not only paralyzed man was paralyzed physically but also mentally. Why mentally? Because he had been there for 38 years and yet he found himself no one to help him. He could have done something like making some friends that would help him to the miracle pool. He could have done something. I want to emphasize this, he could have DONE something. Amen? But he didn’t, Brother Edmund use it as an example to refer to us the JC cluster. It was a magnificent example to use as it reminds us of what we had to do and what we must do. We need to do something, revival starts when a group of people burn strongly with the Holy Fire of God. But as much as the yearning for revival, excuses comes too. We often give ourselves excuses that is intolerable. Stop giving ourselves excuses!!
12 Dec 2005
God First``
This morning I went to school for my Math Re-exam, when I reached school I realised that I’m actually late by 40 minutes. Just when I thought that also late already might as well go home and sleep, Shannon’s voice came to me saying “You didn’t even go and try to fight and you are just running away as a coward” I stunned, and I know that I shall not run but go face it, my destiny. Well, I went, thou I may not do well but I did my best. Praise The Lord.
We were taught that we must, under any circumstances, to put God first in whatever decision we make. But sometimes circumstances just make you can’t put God first. This time, I think I really had no choice but to leave this “God First” option and proceed into my “destiny” I really can’t bear to leave Him my Abba, but I had to because the situation had puts me into it. I’m “forced” to leave this place for my failures, and to leave God to a certain extend and my dearest Brothers and Sisters whom I cherish the most. Of course, I can choose to remain standing on my faith and stay here to fight on, on my own with God and some good and caring souls around. But can I make it? It’s easier for others to say without knowing the situation that I’m in. But you do not need to worry, because I do not share it much with people, even if you misunderstood that I’m have no faith. I hid it deep in my heart because of that I believe that I’d go farther with my faith with God. Many things God has done for me, but how much more can I do? How much farther I can go? How much longer can I hold on to my faith? I wrote what I think and been through my mind not my feelings. Now right a this moment I understand the word “heartache” It simply makes your heart pain really like a needle thrusting through your heart, continue pushing through and causing it to bleed slowly. And by seeing your own blood dripping off then your pain gets deeper and deeper.
Today I’d like to announce that finally the day had come that I’d be leaving here to a place and for an unwilling cause imposed on me. I do not know when we’ll be meeting again but assuredly that we’ll meet again in Heaven. I really regretted that I’ve not given my best to our God Lord Jesus. I enjoyed serving together with you my Brothers and Sisters and many things happened and I do not know how much you remembered, but I’d try to keep them in my mind and treasure it as my precious. Let’s not be sad but rather enjoy the time that we are going to spend together.
~ [ Left By A Loving Soul ] ~
13 Dec 2005
God’s Grace```
This morning when I woke up, my mum told me that my father is willing to support me to study but under some terms and conditions. That is firstly, I need to reach home by 8pm everyday and secondly I can only go church on Sunday. Oh man… What a hard terms and conditions, but gladly that he’s wiling to give his helping hand to me. And the first thing that crosses my mind was that God’s Grace is sufficient for all my need. Indeed God shows Himself true to me, and now how could I deny His mighty power? He is great and greatly to be praised. Hallelujah!! Anyway, after that I went out to Sentosa with fellow Pos-mates. It was an enjoyable day, we played Frisbee, soccer and soak in the water and play monkey game. After that we had our pot luck which was made up of tip-bits. Hahahax… After that we went to Plaza Singapura to have our “dinner” I shared the Fish Soup with Wei Jian and each one of us ate two bowls of rice. After that w went to arcade X-Zone, and Jing and Michele played the dancing machine, and to my amazement, Michelle is quite good at it. Not bad, we had a “pro” dancer among us. After that we went home le… seriously a very nice day spent together. Thank God for everything.
14 Dec 2005
Hooked To a Situation```
At 1.15pm this afternoon, my daddy in Indonesia called me up and out of no where he asked me to go to meet him at airport at 3pm. I was like shocked, and don’t know what to do. After much struggling, I appeared in airport at 3.07pm and I waited him for about 15 minutes. When we sat down, I felt the pressure that’s from him to me, a disastrous pressure. Then he started to tell me little things and ask me what I will do if I fail my re-exam? For a very long time I kept silence because out of guiltiness I could not answer him anything. When I finally told him if I failed then repeat JC1, he shoots right at my face saying “Repeat JC1? No such thing is called repeating your JC1” Then I was like stunned by a stasis trap for more than 15 minutes, and he told me again “If you want me to support you, can. But it’s not on your term but my term.” Stunned again, what’s the tem he’s going to give. And the worst thing that I’ve ever prepared for had come, that is he’ll send me back to Malaysia Penang to study at college. After much silent moment, he told me again, I’ll give you $750 this month since it’s nearing the end of the month. How am I supposed to fulfill my A&B when he gave such little money to me? Oh no, how? And he “requested” that I go back immediately that is Saturday after I settle my school fees to look at what are the courses available in Penang. How am I going to go for service? Of course, I’d choose to stay in Singapore to repeat my JC1, but how am I going to accountable to my daddy? Should I go back to Malaysia this Saturday just to honor my daddy, and then after looking at the courses then come back to Singapore and say that I wanted to stay in Singapore. I really don’t now how to open up my mouth and tell him my decision. God help me. Dear Brothers and Sisters, I do not blog this because I wanted you all to know what I’m going through, but rather I need your prayer. Sister Shannon always says that we are connected by spirit. When one is praying for the other, the other senses it. So please, let me sense your prayer, I beseech your prayers my loved ones. Thank You.
After that I met Cecilia when I’m on my home from Changi Airport since she’s going to Dhoby Ghout to have Bible study. We went all the way to Outram Park, after I sent her off, I went to have my lunch. At about 7pm I went down to Bugis to meet Yi Quan, Cecilia and Ming Xuan to accompany Yi Quan to buy his CG member’s present. After we went here and there, we went to take Neo-Print. Hahahax… Neo-Print is so cool, because I’m cool. Hahahax… Anyway, we went to Swensen and had the infamous Earthquake with Yam, Chocolate, Mint, Mango, and many other funny flavors. And I wad called the old one just because I ordered Yam flavor as they think that only older one like Yam. Lolx. Anyway, we went to arcade to play Bishi Bashi, Michelle is just simply too good at that thing. We had great fun together. And one more thing that crosses my mind was that I suddenly became so on fire that I keep on calling up my friends to invite them to come for service and CG meeting. But, they all rejected me. So sad.
~ [ Left By A Confused Happy Soul ] ~
In Jesus Name```
Gladly today we have Sister Robin Harfouche as our service special guest to talk. In the beginning of the Praising, God had already touched when we sing Salvation Is Here. The lyrics can never be so real to me like this ever. Chorus: cause I know my God saved the day and I know his word never fail and I know my God made a way for me. My God made a way for me. My God “made” a way for me. And God’s word never fails. See that? “Never FAILS”. And Bridge 1 Salvation is here, salvation that died just to set me free. Salvation that “DIED” just to set me “FREE” It’s so real to me especially the situation that I am in right now. God is always ready to help us, to make a way for us out of our bad situation. And He who set us free is Jesus the Son of God. However, thou God promise us that He’d help us, most crucial thing is that you, yes it’s you must DESIRE and ASK for His help. Anyway, when the service actually starts, I get my Bible and my notebook ready and waiting excitedly for the word that she’s going to preach. But to my amazement, she did not do as I expected. But rather she shared her testimony, a strong and powerful and amazing and wonderful testimony. As she sharing, my tears flows out, but of course, I paisehx mahx. So I wiped it away and tried to keep myself not that emotional. But I failed to do so, because as she continue sharing my tears will just keep on flowing out then I look at Ray, a brother whom sitting beside me, I laughed.
Then at the later part of the day, I met someone, someone who despises me, someone who look down on me, someone who “jealous” of me. I do not know, but I’m going to prove that someone that I’m not of what he thinks that I am. But I’m someone who belongs to God and of whom God will not give up on. No matter what may come my way, I’m running after God.
Lest you devils come against me
In Jesus Name Be Silence You Devilssssss
08 Dec 2005
Sicky``
Ahhhhhx. It was 2pm in e morning or should I say in midnight. I walked home from my friend’s place and out of a sudden it started to rain and rained heavily. It’s been a long time that it ever rain so heavily, I was so excited. Finally has a chance to play with water, rain water, water from the sky. I was feeling extremely ok before I slept, after I woke up I had headache, I think because I do not have enough sleep. Anyway, it was a wonderful day at Expo. Thou the presence of God was not that strong as compare to our premise at Jurong west, His tangible presence still touches my heart.
Hahax…
10 Dec 2005
Prayer Meeting``
Early in the morning at 10.50am, my dear son Yang Hong called me asking whether I will be going for Prayer Meeting. Then I realised that I was late for the meeting time which is 10.45m at Serangon. And he say: “You better don’t late because Brother Edmund is coming” Was terrified!! Hahax.. But Thank God that I live quite near Serangon, it was about 20 minutes MRT ride from Chinatown. When I came out from Serangon Station, I saw Wei Jian. So I decided to go together with them. The Prayer Meeting starts at about 12pm, and the Praise and Worship were lead by Sister Xiao Ting while the actual Prayer Meeting was lead by Brother Edmund. After Praise and Worship, Brother Edmund shared a word from John 5:2-9. It was about a paralyzed man sitting at the miracle pool for 38 years and waiting to be healed. When Jesus saw him and asked him, he said he was there for 38 years but no one wanted to give him a hand to enter the miracle pool and be healed. Jesus healed him of course, but the story behind it was that not only paralyzed man was paralyzed physically but also mentally. Why mentally? Because he had been there for 38 years and yet he found himself no one to help him. He could have done something like making some friends that would help him to the miracle pool. He could have done something. I want to emphasize this, he could have DONE something. Amen? But he didn’t, Brother Edmund use it as an example to refer to us the JC cluster. It was a magnificent example to use as it reminds us of what we had to do and what we must do. We need to do something, revival starts when a group of people burn strongly with the Holy Fire of God. But as much as the yearning for revival, excuses comes too. We often give ourselves excuses that is intolerable. Stop giving ourselves excuses!!
12 Dec 2005
God First``
This morning I went to school for my Math Re-exam, when I reached school I realised that I’m actually late by 40 minutes. Just when I thought that also late already might as well go home and sleep, Shannon’s voice came to me saying “You didn’t even go and try to fight and you are just running away as a coward” I stunned, and I know that I shall not run but go face it, my destiny. Well, I went, thou I may not do well but I did my best. Praise The Lord.
We were taught that we must, under any circumstances, to put God first in whatever decision we make. But sometimes circumstances just make you can’t put God first. This time, I think I really had no choice but to leave this “God First” option and proceed into my “destiny” I really can’t bear to leave Him my Abba, but I had to because the situation had puts me into it. I’m “forced” to leave this place for my failures, and to leave God to a certain extend and my dearest Brothers and Sisters whom I cherish the most. Of course, I can choose to remain standing on my faith and stay here to fight on, on my own with God and some good and caring souls around. But can I make it? It’s easier for others to say without knowing the situation that I’m in. But you do not need to worry, because I do not share it much with people, even if you misunderstood that I’m have no faith. I hid it deep in my heart because of that I believe that I’d go farther with my faith with God. Many things God has done for me, but how much more can I do? How much farther I can go? How much longer can I hold on to my faith? I wrote what I think and been through my mind not my feelings. Now right a this moment I understand the word “heartache” It simply makes your heart pain really like a needle thrusting through your heart, continue pushing through and causing it to bleed slowly. And by seeing your own blood dripping off then your pain gets deeper and deeper.
Today I’d like to announce that finally the day had come that I’d be leaving here to a place and for an unwilling cause imposed on me. I do not know when we’ll be meeting again but assuredly that we’ll meet again in Heaven. I really regretted that I’ve not given my best to our God Lord Jesus. I enjoyed serving together with you my Brothers and Sisters and many things happened and I do not know how much you remembered, but I’d try to keep them in my mind and treasure it as my precious. Let’s not be sad but rather enjoy the time that we are going to spend together.
~ [ Left By A Loving Soul ] ~
13 Dec 2005
God’s Grace```
This morning when I woke up, my mum told me that my father is willing to support me to study but under some terms and conditions. That is firstly, I need to reach home by 8pm everyday and secondly I can only go church on Sunday. Oh man… What a hard terms and conditions, but gladly that he’s wiling to give his helping hand to me. And the first thing that crosses my mind was that God’s Grace is sufficient for all my need. Indeed God shows Himself true to me, and now how could I deny His mighty power? He is great and greatly to be praised. Hallelujah!! Anyway, after that I went out to Sentosa with fellow Pos-mates. It was an enjoyable day, we played Frisbee, soccer and soak in the water and play monkey game. After that we had our pot luck which was made up of tip-bits. Hahahax… After that we went to Plaza Singapura to have our “dinner” I shared the Fish Soup with Wei Jian and each one of us ate two bowls of rice. After that w went to arcade X-Zone, and Jing and Michele played the dancing machine, and to my amazement, Michelle is quite good at it. Not bad, we had a “pro” dancer among us. After that we went home le… seriously a very nice day spent together. Thank God for everything.
14 Dec 2005
Hooked To a Situation```
At 1.15pm this afternoon, my daddy in Indonesia called me up and out of no where he asked me to go to meet him at airport at 3pm. I was like shocked, and don’t know what to do. After much struggling, I appeared in airport at 3.07pm and I waited him for about 15 minutes. When we sat down, I felt the pressure that’s from him to me, a disastrous pressure. Then he started to tell me little things and ask me what I will do if I fail my re-exam? For a very long time I kept silence because out of guiltiness I could not answer him anything. When I finally told him if I failed then repeat JC1, he shoots right at my face saying “Repeat JC1? No such thing is called repeating your JC1” Then I was like stunned by a stasis trap for more than 15 minutes, and he told me again “If you want me to support you, can. But it’s not on your term but my term.” Stunned again, what’s the tem he’s going to give. And the worst thing that I’ve ever prepared for had come, that is he’ll send me back to Malaysia Penang to study at college. After much silent moment, he told me again, I’ll give you $750 this month since it’s nearing the end of the month. How am I supposed to fulfill my A&B when he gave such little money to me? Oh no, how? And he “requested” that I go back immediately that is Saturday after I settle my school fees to look at what are the courses available in Penang. How am I going to go for service? Of course, I’d choose to stay in Singapore to repeat my JC1, but how am I going to accountable to my daddy? Should I go back to Malaysia this Saturday just to honor my daddy, and then after looking at the courses then come back to Singapore and say that I wanted to stay in Singapore. I really don’t now how to open up my mouth and tell him my decision. God help me. Dear Brothers and Sisters, I do not blog this because I wanted you all to know what I’m going through, but rather I need your prayer. Sister Shannon always says that we are connected by spirit. When one is praying for the other, the other senses it. So please, let me sense your prayer, I beseech your prayers my loved ones. Thank You.
After that I met Cecilia when I’m on my home from Changi Airport since she’s going to Dhoby Ghout to have Bible study. We went all the way to Outram Park, after I sent her off, I went to have my lunch. At about 7pm I went down to Bugis to meet Yi Quan, Cecilia and Ming Xuan to accompany Yi Quan to buy his CG member’s present. After we went here and there, we went to take Neo-Print. Hahahax… Neo-Print is so cool, because I’m cool. Hahahax… Anyway, we went to Swensen and had the infamous Earthquake with Yam, Chocolate, Mint, Mango, and many other funny flavors. And I wad called the old one just because I ordered Yam flavor as they think that only older one like Yam. Lolx. Anyway, we went to arcade to play Bishi Bashi, Michelle is just simply too good at that thing. We had great fun together. And one more thing that crosses my mind was that I suddenly became so on fire that I keep on calling up my friends to invite them to come for service and CG meeting. But, they all rejected me. So sad.
~ [ Left By A Confused Happy Soul ] ~